I was given a scholarship by the Intitute of Circlework™ to attend the Circlework Leadership Training 2017. In my application, I wrote about my wish to serve and support a world where forgiveness, gentleness, compassion and true receptivity are highly needed. I mentioned how meeting Jalaja Bohnheim in the West Bank earlier on that year reminded me of the key to healing the planet: heart-connections.
On the second day of the training in New York, Jalaja asked us: “How do you come to your center?”
Immediately, a fuzzy cloud of multiple ideas came to my mind.
She continued: “ Whatever your way is, make a commitment that you will do it. You will go there and hold this strong commitment to your soul!”
That moment I realized that in order to truly commit to my true unfolding, I had to first screen through this fuzzy cloud and start articulating precise answers; asking specific questions and envisioning concrete dreams. Only so, I would allow myself to grow and blossom.
This is one of the many lessons I carry with me since the training. During that week, I not only encountered new sources of inspiration and words of guidance. I also met a whole new way of teaching and learning; of trusting my ways and allowing greater grace to come alive through myself. I was taught through silence, through music and through spaciousness; I learned from the forest, the ponds and the stones around me. And I did because I was allowed to; because I was invited to trust that I can hold the clarity I look for, even without having all of the answers.
And so, still not knowing exactly how, after the training I knew that I needed to open and lead further circles for women to find and hold more clarity on what they want and what they need.
Since February 2018 I call a monthly Women*’s Circle in Bremen, Germany. The group varies between 5 to 12 women who let me know one week before if they are coming. In my social circle in Bremen I experience often stress around commitments and appointments, which I want to avoid for the circles I call. Those who come are there because it is the most beautiful and blissful imagination they can have on how to spend a Friday evening. It is beautiful to see how just the decision of attending or not serves already as an exercise to listen to oneselve’s truest needs.
In a strongly achievement- and performance-oriented society, it is a precious gift to open spaces where expectations (from ourselves and from others) are able to disappear. During the circles I guide exercises for the women to arrive and connect to themselves; to ask deeply how they are really doing and what wants to be celebrated or mourned with the group. Sometimes we speak very little; we breath, move our bodies, dance, sing, cry, perform simple rituals and connect through ways different than words.